Silver Linings of 2017

You know how some people start off a new year by picking a word that will inspire their goals or mantra or whatever for the year? I don't do that because my life and mind changes too much to commit to year long goals, but looking back I think I can sum up 2017 in one word. "Grow". Get it? Get it? Okay, but seriously.

It was a rough year. An uncomfortable year. A sad year. I shed a lot of my cozy insulation which left me feeling raw and exposed, but prepared me for a new skin. So while I didn't always love the growing pains, I love who I am becoming because of it. I feel so different and I wouldn't be surprised if I looked back on 2017 as an incredibly significant year in the entirety of my life.

And beyond my own life, I felt that 2017 was a rough year for many in this country. So much has happened that has left me and many many others stunned or hurt or angry. But looking back, I can see growth and change for the better. Despite the insanity, there were quite a few silver linings of 2017 that brought me joy and contributed to this new change within me.

So I want to share the silver linings of 2017, both in my own life and outside of it.

First things first, #metoo. Talk about growing pains, this was a painful movement. It's painful for women to share these stories and it's painful to see the backlash. But women are coming out stronger and more committed to standing together and standing up for one another. We're creating space for ourselves and each other as we speak up, demand justice, and move into the roles we were always meant to have. I'm grateful to the women who risked it all to make their voices heard and to those who have challenged the status quo to create change.

Elizabeth Warren persisting. 

Strengthening old friendships and making new ones.

The spotlight shining on diverse books. The world of literature is changing as the stories of minorities hit shelves and reach bestseller lists. The number of women of color on the "Best of 2017" lists brings me so much joy and I'm glad I've had plenty of opportunities to read their incredible work. A few of my favorites have been
"What It Means When A Man Falls From The Sky" by Lesley Nneka Arimah
"Lucky Boy" by Shanthi Sekaran
"Goodbye Vitamin" by Rachel Khong
"Stay With Me" by Ayobami Adebayo
"The Hate U Give" by Angie Thomas
"Little Fires Everywhere" by Celeste Ng
"Hunger" by Roxane Gay
I've learned so much from these incredible women.

Going to therapy. It took me much too long to finally schedule an appointment, but it's really helped me. Also, the people in my life who are open about going to therapy helped me get there and help me feel confident talking about it, so shout out to them, too.

The Handmaid's Tale on Hulu. So good. And so appropriate for right now.

Starting a bookstagram. At the time I really needed some sort of creative outlet, and turns out taking pictures of my books and writing posts about them was the answer! I've enjoyed the creative process of it all while documenting all the books I read and frankly I'm amazed people even care to follow along. Turns out the bookstagram community is awesome and I love talking books with new and old friends!

The Women's March. I attended the Indianapolis demonstration and I can't express how it made me feel. After an awful awful election year, gathering together to stand against hate and stand up for women's equality, refugees, immigrants, and minorities was empowering and healing. I love my fellow women and it was an honor to gather with many of them that brisk morning.

Wonder Woman. Powerful representation of women in film for the win!

Giving myself permission to write and signing up for a short story class. I've always loved writing, but never pursued it as a creative outlet, but this year I finally let go of all the voices in my head telling me I'll never be successful so why try? I signed up for a short story class that taught me so much and put a fire underneath me to actually complete some stories. I now meet regularly with my fellow classmates for a writing group and I love learning from them. Writing has been so good for me and I've enjoyed the process so much.

Incredible therapeutic music that I screamed sang in my car on bad days and danced to on my good days:
"Praying" by Kesha
"Heaven I Know" by Gordi
"Pray" by Sam Smith
"Hold On" by Wilson Phillips
"I Don't Mind" by Joseph
"Open Hands" by Ingrid Michaelson
Oh Wonder's new album "Ultralife"
HAIM's new album "Something To Tell You"
Gregory Alan Isakov's album with the Colorado Symphony
All of Lord Huron

Our vacation in Portland. Good food, good weather, good people, good time spent with Josh. As of right now it's my favorite city in the US, maybe because it made me feel more like ME than I've felt in a long time. I can't explain, but it lit a fire in me to keep that feeling going and to not abandon who I am and what feels right to me.

Josh's hair. It took a turn in a beautiful direction this year and brought me so much joy. So luscious. So full.

Stranger Things. I didn't watch any of it till this year so binge watching 2 seasons at once was awesome. Also. Steve Harrington could have his own line in this list of silver linings. Actually, Steve Harrington's hair could have its own line.

Being together with all of my siblings. Unfortunately my grandpa passed away this fall and as much as I hated the circumstances, I'm so glad I got to be with my whole family. It's been too long since we've all been together and that trip home was so good for me.

Two weeks with family for Christmas. We had a lot of vacation saved up for the end of the year and got to spend two whole weeks in Utah with Josh's family and my family came in town, too! I haven't ever been able to see both sides of the family on Christmas day so that was really cool. But in general, having a lot of down time to just chill and chat and play games with the family was the greatest.

International Day of the Girl "Freedom" video. Those girls give me chills.

And I'd include this on lists I'd do for any year, but Josh. I think our relationship has gotten a lot stronger throughout this year and I didn't think it was possible, but we've grown closer. He's been there for me and my crazy 200% and I've been able to be completely open with him about all of my struggles. That's an amazing thing to have.

I hope your 2017 had a lot of silver linings, too. May 2018 bring even more!